Don’t fret I am not going to preach to anyone. No, this is more of an observation than anything else. Over the course of my life I have delved in an out of following my star-sign. They have always intrigued me, how is it that someone can know what an entire group of people are going to do based solely on their date of birth? It is impossible, yet some have been eerily close to the bone. My guess would be a numbers game; they are usually printed daily, I couldn’t begin to count how many people are in each star-sign eventually they would have to get it right… Right? Although it still freaks me out when they do!
The point I am making is recently I have found myself in a wonderful situation; I have nothing health wise left to worry about, I don’t have to fight anymore for treatment and have been getting help for a physical disability. But here is what has thrown me; as incredible as this feeling is, after years of fighting one way or another to get treatment or just get up in the morning having life run do smoothly so suddenly has left me lost. Where do I put all this energy into? And for the first time in years I found myself looking at my star-signs.
Please do not get me wrong I am doing anything but complain! This is right up there with getting married, it is just after so long of pushing for this and never really believing it would happen I never thought to prepare myself for what to do when it did.
The moments that lead me to this point stick out so clearly in my mind, I can trace it back years. I spent most of yesterday laughing hysterically, uncertain if I could believe it had happened then I realised that one thing after another had lined up and helped me to progress. If I hadn’t of found a certain bit of information, if I hadn’t of gone to a certain doctor, if I hadn’t of met my husband, or walked into Coffee Rio.
Now, I should explain two things… I am an atheist; however I have such strong respect for those who have the capability to believe in something bigger than them. I lost that a long time ago. I do however have a theory on how I would like to live. I try to respect others (no matter their colour, belief or age), I do try to understand other people’s points of view, even when I don’t agree with them, and I do everything to the best of my ability. This way I regret nothing. I do fail at this sometimes but that’s why I have learned how important these things are to me.
I don’t expect everyone to follow in my path, or read this and say ‘That is how I should be’. Everyone has to find their own way to their own way of life.
The second thing I should say and this is probably the reason I am on such a high today is that yesterday afternoon after over three years of pushing for it I finally got the go ahead for an unorthodox treatment for the condition I have. So I am feeling a little reflective today. Alongside this after two surgeries and a hand full of physiotherapists I have found a specialist to treat the physical symptoms of another condition, my book release is due out soon and I have been happily married for two and a half months…. I have met some incredible new friends and am finally in a totally good space.
I hoped in sharing this I could spread a little hope and joy today.